i recently learnt about the mitzva of yibum. are there only very few situations that happened in our days? why don't i see the buaety in it? it's very hard to see it as a buaetiful mitzva.
Who said the Mitzvot must be beautiful to us? What beauty do you see in Shaatnez?
When you reach the level that you are permitted to study Kabalah, you might be able to acquire a better understanding of some of the Mitzvot. We do not follow Mitzvot because they're beautiful.